WASTE MY TIME

DONT WORRY I'LL PROTECT YOU

2006-04-29T06:05:00.000-07:00

ok so whats with this voting nonsence.. we all know the PAP is going to win.. like yes we all know the singapore's government is one of the most highest paid government in the world. and how do you think they get paid that much?? because we pay them. like check it out kids.. your parents are paying loads for stupid little bills. such as tax, parking, and petrol.. but what are we the people of singapore doing about it?? NOTHING!! no one is voting otherwise... if we are really so un happy with the way the PAP are doing, then why arent people doing anything about it.. ok sure some people dovote against the PAP. but if so many people really dont like them, why do they win every year? sure the PAP threaten people and if we are so aware of it why are they still winning.. if we know that just before the elections, they give citizens raises but ocne they win they jack the prices of transport aka taking back the money they gave you...heck i dont even know why im wrtting about this... im a kid thus i dont really care too much... and did you know that if you spoil a vote.. which means if you happen to accidentilly fill in the voting paper thing wrongly... that vote goes to the PAP... its true!! ever vote that is wrong or spoilt goes to the PAP... my advice people, DONT FUCK UP... but its alright my angel i'll keep you safe and protect you.. im watching the rally thingy.. its pretty fun.. they are all talking bad about the PAP.. are they really that big of a threat??? i feel fat!!! i cant believe that there still unemplyed people in singapore.this is srewed up.. to me its like heck man as long as singapore is doing well we dont really need to change government.. lee shian longs speech blows... doesnt sound good at all.
p.s
i'd vote for the PAP
i think lee kuan yue's
one cool old guy
~killer~

OH MY LOVE

2006-04-27T21:59:00.001-07:00

im in school now im suppose to be doing my projec but i cant.. or i dont want too... and honestly to me it doesnt matter if they are together or not.. both of them arent really worth being called friends.. blah.. i puke on you.. i want to go out but the exams are in a week.. AND I PASSED MY ACCOUNTS!!!!! praise the lord!!!! first test i took and i actually passed!!! most of the time i just draw lines and write the heads.. ha and i get 2 marks for that!!! yay jill!!! i am smart really i am,.... i promise i am!!!! i study i do i really do i promise i do!!!! and my goal for the june is to be able to play all or just about all or at least one full metal song that my darling gary is playing... GIRLS SO CAN TOO PLAY THE GUITAR!!! and look good doing it!! and fuck all you people who think im becoming a life size barbie doll..,. so what i have a few skirts with touches of pink in them sue me!!! god all mighty am i doomed to wear nothing but BLACK???? there are other colours you know!!! and frankly im getting bored of dressing in black!! ive been wearing nothing but black since i was 12 so forgive me for wanting to try other colours.. yall made a huge deal when i wore nothing but black calling me a poser,.. yes i remember that!!! when i had my stocking sleeves with saftey pins and my red eye liner and my ties!!!! and nw you have a problem with my skirts... screw you dykes! arent i in a charming mood today
~killer~

OH MY LOVE

2006-04-27T21:59:00.000-07:00

2006-04-11T21:20:00.000-07:00

amazes me how people find others live so fasinating and how they have to know every little thing about what the persons life. maybe im enviuos that no one cares about my little old life!! HAHA as if!! god if people knew about my life i'd be condemed... not that i havent been already... tongue no tongue who cares... like a wise perosn once told me you dont evesdrop you choose what you want to over hear... and in a girl school it pretty much sucks nothing stays quiet for long.. which pretty much is what puts the excitment in class.. friday!!!! lets go jamming darlings!!! lets go spend our day in a cold room with blasting music with people i love and then go to penni and spend money then sit on the hood of stranges cars and stare at the stars all night and we'll fight the break of dawn... however when morning comes we'll stare straight into the sun and we wont close our eyes... but save the night!!! if only the night could last forever.. night life is not about going clubbing its about going to coffee shops and walking from orchard to tp cause the transport system ended or running from free cabs and playing soccer... being with friends and surronded in somke singing yellow submarine or 99 bottles of beer on the wall.. thats brilliant aint it... who cares about still girls with ACS boys..
~killer~

THE BEATUIFUL PEOPLE

2006-04-10T05:01:00.000-07:00

OUCHY! i just pulled my hair out!! anyways im so annoyed at my sister! she took my new black lace top and wore it and TOTALLY! stretched it out la!!! for some unconceviable reason, she thinks she is as petite as i am. Think again sucker! hahaha .. by doing so, she left me with nothing to wear for band night!!! so as i sat in aboslute futile on my floor, which by now was hidden under endless piles of normally suitable clothes for any other nights. i began to pout! yes i know im 16, by i cuoldnt help feeling in total dispair at my catascrophic dilemma or wearing something mediocer, which goes agaisnt every reson for even going to band night. As everyone knows that its just an opportunity to look pretty and have very one stare. However i get the " what-is-she-wearing" stare!! Then at the next school event i see 10 girls trying to do a "dive on a dime" and imitate what i was wearing. all pettiness aside. i did eventually find something in ture jill the gothic emo punk with a pinch of metal come girly girl style to wear. i wore something a tand bit bigger than a napkin would be. i also made it look decent by wearing the signature button down black over it. thus not showing of any unecessary or unwanted skin... hmm unwanted.. sounds odd.ah screw the language and vocab its giving me a headache!
peace out bitches
~killer~

ALL THE DAMN JOKES

2006-03-20T04:29:00.000-08:00

gees man if that isnt the most childish thing ever.. like i tell you something and just because we aint friends you let the world know... how low is that! i dont really care anymore.. you do what you want.. you are trying so hard not to be two faced and you think your being such a big help to alyssa? news flash she already knew how i felt about everything so if you were trying to make it seem like i was talking behind her back you failed bad! try again later... that isnt being a good friend mind you thats being a backstabber. just when i thought we were getting along. and marilyn stop eves dropping!! ok i was talking loudly, whats your point? does that mean you had to lean back in your chair, lean oh so far back so you could hear even better? oh please. like how obvious was that! even racheal noticed. it was so none of your or rachels buisness.. what your doing is so digusting, and it shows what kind of yp bring youve had. any sign of things not going well you have to totally slenderize and pull down the reputaiton of the person. thats weak. its a good thng i dont give a damn bout my already bad reputaution. (long live joan jett) alyssa is my bestfriend and she knows i have her back now and forever so try hardere to reck the friendship
JILLIAN

2006-03-08T20:08:00.000-08:00

blahhhhhhh muhahaha jilly im so so so bored right now i didnt my research well no im not bored in sleepy!!! its going to be the holidays thank the good lord im telling you i need my sleep...so anyways i need to piss a river

GANGSTA'S PARADIES

2006-03-07T23:44:00.000-08:00

i was raised by the street. im 23 now but will i live to see 24. tell me why are we so blind to see that the ones we hurt are you and me...

bringing me back to one of my oldest points.. why are girls so queer?? like ok i dont really know what i did wrong..ok maybe i have a little clue, but why are yall pissed at me? or is it all in my head. even if i did do something wrong that pissed one of you if not all of you off what the heck is it?? i mean if your not goin gto tell me im just going to keep doing it right? i will apologise if i am in the wrong.. but once again how can i do that when i dont know whats wrong... whats the point of iceing me?? thats like primary school shit. im not that smart so readind minds arent really my speciality

anyways.. as you can see from the top, school hasnt been all that fun for me this week... however im surprised it hasnt affected me so much.. i dont really mind that im the loner.. its good to be alone once in a while.. however i do really miss my seniors loads more... oh i know why i feel weird!! i need attention!!! hahaha yea ok problem solved!! im being stoned at school by my "friends" thus not having and that outlet to have my out bust. which means my built up hyperness has not had a chance to be let out..

which is why i have my other group of friends.. thank god! going jamming on saturday! i shall be the cameraguy! funny boys thinking they are little rockstars making a movie or what ever they think it is.. i do however love cameras... im goin to drift from my school friends i feel it.

~killer~

sappy lyrics

2006-03-02T18:24:00.000-08:00

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

On my knees, I’ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I’d give it all
I’d give for us
Give anything but I won’t give up
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving
Hold on to me and
never let me go

HA!

2006-02-26T01:45:00.000-08:00

so i was watching oprah and i have come to realise even more that the catholic or chrisitian religion is a whole load of crap! yes people you heard me right. this time I not only welcome spammers i DARE them to drop me a comment. first of maybe it might be just an amrican thing. you know teenagers haveing sex and shit.. then i as thinking and no, its not... we asian kids have sex too... then i thought that hey you know half the kids in the US of A are catholics to begin with.. i mean they didnt really have a choice did they? their weird parents made that decision for them. but wait... i know a few catholics here that are underage so obviously arent married but are having sex... ok so just to be fair, some of the people i know who are catholics and are fucking other catholics arent really that strong believers... they go to church to make their parents happy.. but then.... ( heres the shocker) i know some really strong catholic/ chritians (mostly christians) that are having sex!!!! (and yes kiddies oral sex is still sex) and if memory serves me right, its like agaisnt the religion to have pre marital sex isnt it??? hmmmmm and another thing half of the people i know who are catholics and are having sex met their boyfriend/ girlfriends at CHURCH!!! damn times have changed.. fro what i rememberd church was a place to worship god and not to find your next sex partner... so for anyone finding it hard to get layed, go to church!!! im pretty sure im offending alot of people but fuck it bitches this time im right. you religious freaks pick and chose what rules you'd like to follow in the bible and those you break you say that god gave people the freedom of choice. yet you nicely turn around and condem people like me who chose not to believe in your religion and voice my opinion. try again suckers
~manson~

in the name of the father and of the .....

2006-02-25T19:36:00.000-08:00

oh help me might one. i shall be taking pictures of gary's gig!!! tonight. which would mean i'd be standing infront with the crazy mosh people. save my soul protect me might one from the swinging arms of the weird mosh people. i wish not to ge beaten up by weird mosh people. enable me to take wicked sick pictures of him and the band. keep everyone of the weird mosh people safe that no one gets hit on too badly. that everyone enjoys savage masiah. and that the band wickeds out on stage amen

2006-02-22T00:48:00.000-08:00

gone are the times we said all the jokes. gone are the times we sang emo songs. gone are the times we ate recess on the stage. gone are the days of GIGS! gone are all the fun in my life... so anyways moving on. i had my bio CA today and i think i did pretty well.. it was about sex so i hope i do well. doesnt really matter though my CAs dont count. i just need pretty marks in my report book so i get to go out! dammit people there are parties!!

tough

2006-02-18T19:27:00.000-08:00

so tough love doesnt always work it didnt work on kurt cobain. his parents gave him tough love and hes dead. tough love works on me sometimes but that would be the reason why im such a screwed up child. though i know that there are many kidswhos lives are alot more screwed up then mine.. i have learnt that no matter how bad it seems someone out there always has it worse then you. even so, at that moment in time when yur feeling bad you cant help but feel tha not gonig out cause your mom deosnt let you is the worlds biggest problem and that your life sucks more than anyones (though hats far from the truth) and when you call someone and want to rant. you'd like that person you call just to be your friend and listen to you,, you klnow play along for a while telling you yes you not going out is the biggest problem man kind faces but its alright i still love you.. you dont need that person to tell you that " oh get over it thats a tiny problem so fuck it off" yes i do like people who are straight forward but you need to know when to tell the person to grow up and when to just shut up and listen to the person cry or the tinest thing.i dont really know what my point is
~killer~

what are friends good for?

2006-02-10T18:14:00.000-08:00

keep smiling keep shining knowing you can always count on me for sure thats what friends are for.

to christopher manson:
i suppose it was my fault we stopped being close. it hurts we dont talk but really its no ones fault your in a different country with new friends and everything plus your working. it wouldnt have lasted our age difference was huge. well not really. we'll never fall apart so tell me why this hurts so much. yes it was you who showed me the way and meaning of life. you were my meaning and insperation for living. i'll never for get and will forever cherish our long talks about what it means to have each other. i know i'll always have you. do you know that you'll forever have me chirs? i hope to god you do. dont forget me. look back on how i was that geeky skinny kid who you hated but learnt to love with all your heart. your the best thing i could ever ask for my one true love who'll i'll never get over my frist bestfriend my first love my frist real brother my first heart break. who will i cry to now chris. WHO!! WHY DID YOU LEAVE YOU FUCKER!! i hate you. but i hate myself for hating you cause you couldnt do anything to stop it. and i know you would if you could. come back and visit me. have fun with your life i'll keep you safe ok. thank you for opening my eyes to so many things. i love you Mr Christopher Christian Manson. and i always will. see you when the sun comes up.

to weird internet people:
cherish your friends they are the one thing you cant live without. have all the air all the water all the food all the money in the world but no friends, your better off dead. hold on to them for dear life. never drift pull them back keep them close. dont be a jackass. forgive and forget things are better that way. keep track of the good times and act like the bad never happened. love each friend like he or she was your only friend. dont neglect anyone dont forget anyone. dont wait to long to call the person you love. time doesnt heal it just makes it hard to pick up the dman phone and call. people change its true you can help it except it. just remember the fun. if only it were as easy doing it as saying it

~killer miller~
to the one and only
manson child
p.s
it was about time you shaved your head chris!

2006-02-07T03:27:00.000-08:00

ok so things are really sucking im telling you i cant take school i cant take people anymore.. too muchh.... the person you thought would be there for you turns around and fucks you nicely in the face and everything i like wrong... i surprised i havent cried over it.. i need to though.. its killing me and the music is not helping! dont have anyone to talk to and i guess thats my fault but still fuck reply dammit!
FUCK LIFE

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

2006-02-03T01:40:00.000-08:00

holy dear lord ok so i dont have any reason to be angry.. well at least not any real reason but like can everyone die. im telling you the boyfriend phase is getting so motherfucking old its killing me!!! i hate the fact that everyone has boyfriends its fucked up!! i wish i didnt have one its fuck! im telling you.. the way air head girls act like you ditch your friends just for a dick? what in hells name is that!! are you fucking clueless that people are angry at you bitch!!! if no one will say i i bloody hell will!!! you arent fucking married so stop fucking acting like you are its the grosses but sadest retared thing to be doing. jeese christ have mercy!! having to put up with you shit its killing me!! mother of god i dont care if he loves you i really dont I DONT!!! blah its not like yall have been together for that long right so ya!!! arent you tired of each other.. the way you go on and on and bloody on about him isnt he getting old!!! even michelle isnt as bad as you.. though imust say...................... nevermind i shant................. but still!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh annoying little bitches!!! i cant take it my boyfriend this my boyfriend that i want your boyfriend to fucking get hit by a moving object and die!!! i wish it could be just us again.. god i sound lesbian.. but ya!! i cant stand reading blogs about how so and so is so madly in love and would die and do anything for so and so.. it makes me want to stick my finger down my throst a hundred times still theres nothing felt to barf then rip every single stran of hair out off my head and eat it and barf again and stick pins and needles in my eyes slowly
and shove pencils up my..... you figure it out...
~KILLER~

hmmmm

2006-01-30T18:20:00.000-08:00

ahhh slut slut sluts everywhere! poser goth sluts who wear bras 5 times too big for them!! eeee!!! how much more can i take?? ok so a i a poser or a sell out or have i just grown up.. im starting to wear more skirts now and im looking freakishly girly wearing them.. i have no complains from mommy cause she loves the way i look but.... i cant help feeling like im betraying some part of me.. the part whos life revolves around black and jeans and tight shirts. i almost feel ashamed to wear my slayer shirt. its like a girl who loves hilary duff and linsay lohan whos wearing a ah lian pink metallica shirt who knows jackshit about their music.. i feel like that girl!!! but am i suppose to be a slave to that way of life? i mean cant you love the music and the culture without having to dress like it all the time. ive always said that things like punk rock and metal arent fasihon trands they're lifestyles. you live it breathe it feel it love it. which would kind of mean you become it dont you? i cant remember the last time i wore one ofmy netting shirts with stocking arms.. oh dear... ok so fuck that for the time being... its everyones birthday and i have so much work to do cause i havent gotten anyone a present so

NOTICE FOR ALL FEBUARY BABIES: YOUR ONLY GETTING YOUR PRESENTS 1 WEEK AFTER YOUR BIRTHDAYS!

be thankful your getting one at all..

~killer~

MY LOVE MY LIFE MY FRIENDS

2006-01-26T05:09:00.000-08:00

i am so protective of my friends.. like seriously messing with my friends is like the biggest mistake to make. alyssa is my little sister i swear i love that girl to death.. and if anyone hurts her you die bitch.. and trust me im not kidding.. *hint* i was feeding her banana today and like i dont know it was so inoccent and pure.. its like trying to keep her sheltered from everything bad. which as i learnt from michelle is impossible.. and ya like michelle whom i love too said its like you can protect people all you want but the only way to learn is to fuck up a few times...i love my friends and i love the fact that i know no matter what they've got my back..i miss christian joel and hots. i really do. 4th feb!!! the gig at RGS! with my darling my daddykin and my kor kors... hahaha.. was talking to gary and he was like he thinks when im with christian it looks like the brother looking ater the sister.. kindda true.. like at first he was the tall boy who didnt talk to me. and now hes the tall boy who wont stop!! but i love it. hots is adorable!!!! i adore him!!!! hes more like my little brother who can kick your ass.. i swear that boy is violent sia.. note to anyone DO NOT STAND NEXT TO HIM IN A MOSH PIT EVER!! crazy fucker.. joel is the best, i mean the one i can always count, on even if i dont talk to him for half a year, he'll be there when i want him to be. since i was 14 and now im 16 hahah all grown up.

oh the loves and pains of my life.
that mean more than the world to me.
how i wish we never grow up and,
never grow out of our late nights with food fights.
our deep talks about life and sex in toilets,
our fights and lies with tears we cried.
memories of times we laughted our way to abs
never thought the thought of yall would make me sad.
so thats my emo little poem, to show them who much i
adore them. i know they love yes they do,
but they'll never love me as much as i love you.

~killer~

BLOOD SPOTS!

2006-01-23T04:49:00.000-08:00

CHEERLEADERS TOTALLY KILL!!! i love being a cheerleader!! ahh it feels good to be back!! im fucking tired as hell but feels good training was pretty alrught i have blood spots on my arm and blue blacks but i feel fine... who ever said cheerleaders werent tough die bitch die.. ok so i know per pressure are for losers and all but i cant help feel alittle loser-ish ... like i totally believe and like doing things because you want to do them and not because everyone else is doing it.. but like i feel blah... ok enough about feeling sorry for myself.. as long as im loved by the people/ person that matter lifes good...school was a dag so shagged! really i hope my legs fall off so i wont have to feel the afterhmath of my training.. OK IM TOO TIRED! goodbye weird net people
~killer~

DEARLY BELOVED

2006-01-14T04:12:00.000-08:00

ok so im really emo now and its not the period cause it just ended... ok so it sucks balls when the one person who means the most in the world to you is in another country and yall are no longer bestfriends cause hes all grown up. and it sucks when you want to talk to some the person you love the most ever but hes busy... and you know he'd drop everything hes doing just to listen to you go on about how ugly your new school shoes are.. but you dont want to bug him. it sucks when you think your bestfriend is more into her boyfriend and when your other bestfriend wasnt really your best friend at all. when you cant be around the people who you take as your brothers cause you cant go out. it kills when your cousin and you are no longer close. i miss you, you DIPSHIT!! oh my god ya!! like you never come out anymore.. and even then i dont want to talk to you at partys or gigs.. i remember when we were younger and i asked if you thought we'd stay bestfriends when we grew up. and you said you didnt think so.. i believed you but i didnt think it would happen that fast! wrost part is i dont think you even notice! we use to be so close you'd eat my chicken nuggets and id break your stupid sword. we played the jewel stone riders with our stupid magic powers and that stupid gummy bear lanugae we made up. i never thought yous make me cry. but that day at was it megans first month when you said youd be going to averys party at night. and i was so so so SO looking forward to seeing you there.. you didnt go!! beacause you found someone who was more important than i was.. i get it.. but thats no reason to ditch me! bloody hell this sound a lot like incest. but fuck no man!! its like lossing a bestfriend only worse.i was tight with you since we were born! yea i think im just being way to drama.
~killer~

AM I STILL SPECIAL?

2006-01-14T00:37:00.000-08:00

i really dont feel special anymore. i mean ive always been the weird freak of a child and now everywhere i look people are dressing and acting like me.. i use to get into alot of trouble and i loved it. i was fearless. but now my gutts have left me.. im always thinking what if i get caught and get into trouble. some people think that its me growing up and being for responsible. but if thats growing up i want to be peer pan! i dont want to grow up! growing up its so boring!!! you think to much.. you dont live in the moment.. i know all my friends at school are of no use in this department... all of them are thinking so umch about their exams and getting into a good JC which i totally respect.. but does that mean the end of our detention and suspension days??? dont get me wrong im not saying this as a diss but really... all my school friends are to focused on the studying part that i personally feel they are missing out... your a kid this is the only time you can get into trouble. hell your expected to get into trouble.. the only person i have now is rachel... and even that... like she asked me to hide with her to avoide work but i didnt cause i didnt want to get into trouble.. WHAT THE HELL!!!!!!!!!!! is that the end of beans and whurmer????? it sure feels like the duo is gone.. shes been really distent like not close anymore... and the other metalhead group.. i havent gone out with them since the holidays and i think ive driffed.. its not my fault i cant go out.. gayle and all i never talk to anymore... so it isnt really good to have so many friends... i want to learn to play the song stare at the sun then i can play and sing!!1 HAHAHAHA!!! i cant sing for fuck nuts.. but i can always try...

~KILLER~

I AM AN EMO PUNK POSER!

2006-01-11T05:32:00.000-08:00

i am and im proud of it! i love my emo music. i havent listened to it in a million years and how ive missed it so.. ok i take back the bit about the poser but really of my go its like my bestfriend went away for a long time and im seeing her again ive missed my music so so so much! i sound damn queer right? talking about music.. listening to this music gets me emo cause i think of the holidays and the 4 boys. how i love them! my darlings i love so much! i dont know why??? they are like little basterds!! i miss joel and hots! although im pretty sure joel is going to carry on being hot cold with me. i want to go eat prata at jalan kayu with them again! want them to come over and watch movies with me. want them to get into stupid trouble as i watch. want to walk down a row or rich people house with my slingshot which by the way christian broke just by touching it!!! and shoot rocks at peoples house and run away in different directions and get lost and scared.

WHEN THE HELL IS THE NEXT GOD DAMN GIG!!!

so kiss me like you did my heart stopped beating. im melting in your eyes i lost my place could stay a while and im mealting in your eyes like my first time that i caught fire just stay with me lay with me now!!! never caught my breath every second im without you im a mess..

the stars will cry the blackest tears tonight and this is the moment that i live for i can smell the ocean air and here i am pouring my heart onto these roof tops just a ghost to the world... from up here the city lights burn like a thousand mile of fire and im here to sing this anthem of our dying day!

god all the momories its amazing how much i actually love those shitbags.. who have become like brothers to me..
~killer~

2006-01-08T01:06:00.000-08:00

christoper micheal, erin niama, josh alexi, alexzandrea teyler!! are going to be the names of my four children! so yes all the names are copy righted and i hold the rights!!! my name for my children!! i cant wait for school i know like huh??/ i had cheer training yesterday and i have this huge ok not so huge but big blue black on my hip and it licks balls!!1 pain!! im going to get married at 23 have a kid at 24 then 26 then 29 then twins at 30!! i got it all planned out.. ok so gary just made me read some stuff about how losers and posers are over using the sign of the goat \m/ ya that and its missing of the metal heads and believe it or not there is a whole pannel of people who are like metal meatl heads its so cute i swear.. so now my eyes are tred and i really dont feel like typing anymore bottom line LOSERS AND POSERS WHO DONT LISTEN TO ROCK OR METAL... IF YOU USE THE SIGN OF THE GOAT THINGY YOUR HAND WILL HE CUT OFF AND YOUD BE MADE TO EAT IT WHILE YOUR EYEBALLS ARE BURNT!

SWITCHFOOT IS NOT ROCK
AVENGE SEVENFOLD IS NO LONGER METAL
~killer~

2006-01-07T07:14:00.000-08:00

how queer i wrote a thank you for everyone but only michelle and garys one can be seen

THANK YOU!!!!

2006-01-06T08:04:00.000-08:00

ok pepole to thank.....

MICHELLE!!!
thank you so much for planning and going through with everything. it was the best best BEST!!! birthday ever!!!! i owe you so much!!! even though if wasnt anything like the mtv show my super sweet sixteen with million dollar meals. we had a good old cheap coffee shop prata dinner with good friend which is worth way more than a hundred billion dollars!!! it was the best thing! so much more i need to type but sleepy sia then tmr got training

ELIJAH!
thank you for helping out iwht the planning and THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE ROSE!!!! i love it to death!!! thanks for the food and bringing me to chips very nice place apart from the smoke and all.. really had a fucking kick balls time.. yes i still have lots to right but i want to sleep!!! please do my party again next year. oh ya thanks for the entertainment!!

SARAH!!!
THANKY OU SO VERY MUCH FOR THE WALLET I LOVE IT!!!! really i do i can fit my phone in there... you could put your weed in here muahahahaha! erm erm thanks for dan ryans it totally killed!!!!1 you rock ass bitch!!!! what else... jus thanks for everything lah really you toally did more than you needed too in making me feel loved

SHAUNNA!!
its always wicked fun being with you taking pictures in the toilet and everything dont eat so much sotong i swear you explode then who has the clean up your gutts??? me right doing all the work.. i still want my flowers thank you very much.. and my ear is still itchy!!!

GARY!!
thank you for being you!!! thanks for the pills and thanks for not throwing up on mehahah thanks for the coffee thanks for the love

OK YA HAVE LOADS MORE TO SAY BUT I HAVE TO GO NOW NOW NOW!!! PICTURES ARE ON FRIENDSTER PHOTO ALBUM.. NOT ALL ARE UP YET SORRY
~killer~

INDEED I DO....

2006-01-04T18:31:00.000-08:00

so last night was so drama it was unbelieveable. did more crying in that one night than any other. god boys are queer. but hey do, do the sweetestr things to make up for them being jackasses. so this morning the msges came pouring in. woke up twice once at 620 i had like 5 msgs there read them went back to sleep woke up at 8 and had another 4.. and they're still coming. indeed i do feel loved and remembered. even though i really think all the boys while they were sitting for the bus one out of 10 of them actually remembered it was my birthday and told the rest. but hey makes no difference to me.. indeed it does make you feel a tad bit popular in that shallow way where people you dont know or your not close too wish you happy birthday. gary was the first to wish me but ya that was expected. leslie wished me second. sweet boy.. and finally at god knows what time my darling cousin ryan decideds that its time he send me something. i swear that boy ah.. LET THE PARTIES BEGIN!!! tonight sucks balls its suppose to be the day my family takes me out. but my moms working tonight so we cant go out. which means were going out for lunch. blah! 16 and life still sucks.. friday night i have a feeling michelles get the group to eat at some indian place. good food!!! saturday nights the real party. even thought its not really for me.. well i dont think its for me. but i dont care now do i!! i want my presents. hell im 16 so i have all the right to act like a brat. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARY-ANNE ROBOT!!! shes got the same birthday as me too.. oh oh oh so does MARILYN MANSON!!!! indeed i feel special now.
~killer~

BACK IN BLACK

2006-01-03T05:38:00.000-08:00

so im back in black thanks to my cousin keshia! ahhh angel girl i swear!!! i have black jeans!! yay! i sweat she is the sweetest thing ever!! and she oh so bloody pretty i tell you.. oh and shes like freakishly smart. so boys... you dont really stand a chance unless she decides to be nice and actually pay you any attention. not fair ah.. haha thats why i say if your not pretty hang around pretty people their prettyness will rub off on you... all my cousins are damn pretty lah my friends are also so bloody eye candy to look at its crazy.aiyo oh ya and my cousin is the sweetest! wait i said that already... like really pretty girl who is oh so smart and is a very nice person WHERE TO FIND!!! see i was going to write about how the first day of school was a total waste of time but now im like writting it all about her...hahahahah DAMN YOU PRETTY PEOPLE I TAKE LEMONS AND THROW AT YOU!!!! hahahaha shes funny too!!!
~killer~
cousin and friend to the pretty people

beauty brain

2005-12-30T18:58:00.000-08:00

ok so why do pretty people think everyone is jealous of them like hello??? between being pretty having big boobs or having a brain im leaning more towards having brains? why you pretty bimbos ask? well yall are pretty now but when you little barbie dolls grow up marry rich but gravity takes over and you start to shrivel up and shang think of a rasin left in the sun for a tad too long. however if you have brains... you'll grow up get lots of money then the older you get the more your able to get your face lifts and shallow shit like that...so see kids go to school pay attention and study.. so all you guly kids out there study hard... now for me.. neither pretty nor smart so im in a bit of a pickel huh... oh wells.. school rocks but school teachers suck... right HAPPY NEW YEARS EVE! yes i remembered! 5 days to my birthday if anyones counting... so thursday my bitrhday would be with my family. *how spaz* friday is with my darling pople who mean the world to me my school friends and no one else.. saturday is my sinful group of the prettiest and bitchiest however th most talented girls and the oh so good looking talented boys with the biggest egos! thats going to be my im-so-wasted-i-cant-remember-my-name-are-you-my-husband party... so not looking forward to that.. DRINKING IS EVIL ITS THE DEVILS DRINK. which could explain why i enjoy it so much
~killer~

SUCKS BALLS!

2005-12-29T18:06:00.000-08:00

hello little people! it is i the weird one. whos turning 16 in.......HOLY CRAP!!!!!! other than i just dropped my phone... ITS NEW YEARS EVE TMR??? oh no no no wait SUNDAY! no no wait again YES TOMORROW!!!!!!!!! holy hell this sucks ass i still dont know where to go for new years!!! i mean there will be a million parties but like oh no!! it also means that im going back to school! no freaking way! this sucks balls! SUCKS BALLS I TELL YOU!!! im ranting and raving like a little 5 year old but really people im not the only one whos doing it!!! by the way im 16 in 6 days.. BUT NOT THE POINT RIGHT NOW!!!! shuanna had a party last night. now why the hell would she do that for??? you dont have parties 2 adys before the party of the year??? thats just not normal... I DIDNT EVEN GO TO THE PARTY!!! ok not fair.. she is so having a new years party cause i say so!! i may sound like a brat but once again trust me i have reason to be hurt. ok im done talking about my troubles i shall go bathe and make important phone calls.
~killer~

LUCKY STRIPS

2005-12-27T04:55:00.000-08:00

so have yall gotten hit in the face with a shoe before. i have. i think i was like 10? we were playing tennis.. no no we were going to play tennis.. my mom bought the ugliest pair of trainers and i was like wow they are ugly huh. she took them and swung it at me my whole side of my face went numb for a good long while. so as you can tell the mother is being a drag as always. so whats new right?? what is new?? my birthday is in 9 days and im so not looking forward to it. its going to be another birthday of broken promises. i can feel it. doesnt that just make you hate being born? well arent i happy this evening.. like im telling you. once your a teen everything sucks balls.. im going to be 16!!! but i aint going to be getting no sweet 16 party like those girls on that rich kid snob mtv show. its like you wait the whole year for your birthday and once its coming you wish it'd go away. 2 days after christmas. 5 days till the new year. and believe me when i say i dont give a crap what my parents say im staying out all damn night on new years. like hi if they could abandon me when i was 14 at my cousins house with 4 other boys, they sure as hell better let ,e say out this year. at least where ever im going it'll be away from the mother. can you feel the love. everyones outside but no ones talking. moms in one of her shitty "im-doing-all-the-house-work-while-yall-do-nothing-you-ungreatful-shit-bags" moods... like gees woman. she got all crazy at me cause i didnt know where the hangers were kept. like rightos..now shes making me iron my own clothes. god shes annoying. but hell i'll do it cause im such a slob i dont need to iron my clothes! muahaha
~killer~

2005-12-23T04:17:00.000-08:00

ok so my birthday is in 2 weeks! anyone who would like to throw me a party here are the things i want

1) PINK AND BLACK BALLOONS!'
2) all of my friends
3) cake
4) music
5) entertainment
6) drinks
7) food
8 ) presnts

thank you
jilly

MERRY EVE OF CHRISTMAS EVE!

2005-12-22T19:37:00.000-08:00

YES TMR IS CHRISTMAS EVE WHICH MAKES TODAY THE EVE OF CHRISTMAS EVE! isnt it a wonderful day! just brilliant! love is in the air and not the love love. its the general over love for everyone! everyone and anyone! right now i love anyone! i need to tell someone i love them.. hmmmm lets call chris!!1 oh christian got me a christmas present! YAY! thank you ian! i like that name ian. but anyways! im so excited! i cant wait for christmas even though this year my families not having a christmas party which by the way sucks balls cause i wont be able to see my cousins and drink with them and stuff. but its alright! pictures! take many many pictures. once again who comes and kills me lovely mood. the bratty sister. im listening to music and shes turning up the volume of the tv over my music. fucker!! its not heavy noisy shit im listening to nelly furtardo and shes just making it louder shes so childish! poor jeese he has to share his birthday with the most spoilt ungreatful child in the world my sister
~killer~

PICTURES

2005-12-15T05:34:00.000-08:00

i want to go out and take pictures its been a million years since i took pictures of my friends!!! i miss my friends i miss michelle and alyssa so so SO much!!!! i know michelle wont take pictures with me but alyssa will!!!! i miss alyssa!!! sigh!!! i really do. that dipshit always brighten up my day.. being stupid with me taking our 1 2 3 pictures and butting heads!!! oh the good times. and then cheerleading when we did the puffer fish face aiyo so cute!! i need a group picture of them. hahah we'll take with when michelle not looking!!! or we';; just drug her. now problem where to get drugs
~killer~

WHAT TO DO?

2005-12-14T09:06:00.000-08:00

what to do when shes prettier than you smater than you and more talented than you? doesnt hanging around pretty people just totally make you feel fucking low and useless. sucks balls huh. i should surround myself with real ugly people then i'd fit right in. god i hate being a teenager, everything is so shallow and everything hurts and everything just doesnt seem good enough.more like i just never seem good enough. wonder what being the best at something feels like. man i feel low. can you tell? its one of the fucked moods where no one can say anythng to make it better. doesnt that bite. where did all my friends go? i know they are right here and i can call them but thats not enough. god im confused huh. you think your damn great and you big fuck and all. then you look outside your little world and look at the bigger picture and realise your worse than chicken shit. depressing sia. i need pictures i need to go out and take pictures with friends. everyone smiles in pictures you have to. happy or not happy in a picture for that 3 seconds your smiling. thats kindda fake if you think about it. i suppose everyone needs alittle fakeness in their sad sorry shit filled lives.
~killer miller~

CLUE LESS!

2005-12-11T00:48:00.000-08:00

god i hope your readin this. heck it doesnt make a difference if you do or not. you cant do anythign for me. your all just talk... go smoke i really dont care really i dont... isnt that suppsoe to make you happy cause you just love and HAVE TO SMOKE so fine it really doesnt bother me anymore. god your so clueless.. you just talk and talk andthats it. it emans nothing. i have heard so much from you that now im numd to whatever you say. i dont get happy and its not special or anything. cause i know its just something you say you memorise and say it oevr and over again. you dont so anything to show it to prove it nothing. just words which mean nothing to me so just fuckign save it ok! im freezing half to blood death just for you to say ok i love you bye. fuck it waste of my time
~JILL~

OH DEAR LORD!!!!

2005-12-10T06:57:00.000-08:00

ok so im in malaysia and its only been one day and im missing people or person like CRAZY!!!! hahaha i miss my pussy cat too POPPY PLANT MISSES PUSSY!! hahah that sounds dam sick lah. ok so ya!! !i came to the stinky cyber cafe im afriad to touch anything cause i might contract freaking HIV and bloody die thats how dirty it is!!!! im only coming home on monday night at 9 so that means i'll be home by like 3am!!! that sucks balls.. but the shopping here is wicked sick!!!! im spendnig so mucha dn im getting so many presents here for all of yall.. not going to tell you how much but its hell of alot cheaper than in singapore!!! IM BYING HIGH HEELS!!! hahahahah so cute lah black with studs.. it was like a 7 hour trian ride to malaysia crazy sia.... i want to go home. i want my friends!!! ok ok i shall go because theres NO ONE ONLINE!!!!!! waste my money good bye people i love you
~killer miller~

ROCK SCHOOL!

2005-12-06T07:24:00.000-08:00

in your eyes my first time that i caught fire stay with me lay with me. ok i messed up the lyrics. BUT all is forgiven. alyssa how come you _ _ _ _ _ _ _ has so many blanks??? who you talking about? mine only has _ _ _ _. hmmmm ok nvm that for now. so i watched rock school yesterday and in doing so has made me realise that i dont want to be a rock star in this day and age. i mean lets face it. all the good rock anthems have come and are long long gone. and what we left with now are bands which are really good and all but they dont have that thing that the oldies had. its too clean cut you know? to pop. theres a reason why the old bands are still being jammed. but other than that. my god for 2006 is to get my electic guitar. which im getting cause my darling is giving me his!! JILL LOVES GARY!!! thank you sweets. and play a gig! well a private gig a very very private one so no onw will know how badly i suck. im lossing my train of thought so i'll finish this post another time
~killer miller~

CHEER UP EMO KID!

2005-12-04T03:30:00.000-08:00

its calling me. emo punk music. i woke up with sense fail in my head! and i have the sudden need to listen to bite to break the skin. is that even under emo punk? but ya! it gets into your blood. so all the emo haters out there SUCK IT! im getting an electric guitar!!! ok not getting it yet but garys lending it to me. so hopefully that will motivate me to get off my ass and seriously start learning how to play. and once i get good the guitar is mine!!! shouldnt be that hard ya. i can play the first part of the fade to black thingy. it would sound way cooler on an electirc. isnt it good to have friends! needa find and amp. anyone got an amp! went to church for rachels performance.she kills me!! very very good! im sorry back to my guitar.hahah im so excited! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!! _ _ _ _ muahahahaha anyways MERRY CHRISTMAS DARLING FREAKS! love is a wonderful thing if you actually like the person. believe me kiddeis those are wise words. like if you are only trying to get with the person cause you feel lonely then DONT! its better to wait for someone you actually do like.. i mean HELLO! if you have nothing in commen with he person stop trying to make somethine happen thats not there! looks account for 99% of the first impression but in a relationship looks are only 10% of what should count. WAKE UP AND SMELL THE COFFEE DESPOS!
p.s
this is directed you anyone
(ya right) im just here to state
a harsh fact people
~killer miller~

HAPPY AIDS DAY YESTERDAY

2005-12-02T00:06:00.000-08:00

there goes my valentine! so happy AIDS day kiddies! well it was yesterday lah but thats alright every day should be WORLD AIDS DAY! you know what that means dont you? wrap it up dumb fucks! i dont want to feel my heart is breaking! dam infectious. dude like im a pig i swear. ive been eating non stop. its friday and i have spent the whole afternoon at home not because i cant go out. but because i left my house keys in the car and i dont have keys to go out. aka im trapped in the god forsaken house! blah! tmr is rachels big day dancing in church! whoo hoo! wonder how to dress? it may be a performance but it is church after all. actually i should be more worried about what gary wears. i dont know why he wants to come but hey company is always good. its going to be christmas. and i have no money. so... i need to find something thats cheap and cute that i can get everyone. or i'll have to like short list people who are not as impotant to me. other than christmas im looking forward to valentines day. like this year i might actually have someone to go out wiht. damn man this year i asked wilson out and he like blew me off. thanks man! hmm what did i do last year? oh hahaha it was joel nothing happened cause it didnt last that long. and the year before that was julius and in primary 6 was avery! hahaha i still remember moneky boy!!! mtv asia awards... ok nvm inside story.. heck i'll go alone next year. hey speaking about that my birthdays coming! dont ask how that has anything o do with my birthday i just needed to point that out. my birthday is in 1 month and 3 days!!! i'm gonna be 16 dumb fucks!!! ok i think i better stop calling yall that huh.. i love you kiddies! get me cool stuff for my brithday ok?
~killer~

ARE YOU A HOT GIRL

2005-11-30T04:45:00.000-08:00

haha mucus dripping down disgusting. says you. trying it it taste salty-ish.. HAHAHAHA anyboys want to kiss me now? and thank you? you singed up for blogger so you could tell me im disgusting!!! fine thank you for taking the time! have i said this already? my room is bright pink with green glow in the dark stars on it and soon to come its going to be a photo wall too! 2006 my room is going to look wicked cool! *i hope* plus next year im sec4 which means i have to get my shit together! at least i have to look neat and nice in my school uniform. so anyways today went out with joel to keep my daddykins company! he wanted to go to the gym which i had no problem with but wha daddykins forget to tell me was that you had to pay to get in and i wasnt dressed right. like hmm i was in shorts what! so we ended up going to some dunno what coffee shop to drink ice milo which i payed for!!! blah! got suckered out of my money. hahah jokes. walked around made joey-elle a flower thingy. got on the bus talked about the difference between hot girls are pretty girls.. so hot girls mostly mean they have a hot body and pretty girls means their face is pretty but body is well not "prefect". surprise surprise i was too shy to ask which girl i was.. i really wanted to know though!!! nvm that. talked about bubble asses! i love girls with bubble butts! i want a bubble butt!talked about girls in general. damn boys do talk a whole lot about girls huh... talked about metal music as always...got to S-11 sat down shaun adam came talked abit. hes not to sociable. i told him how they make chicken nuggets and he got grossed out abit. it looked like it was going to rain plus i had a nice ncie dinner waiting for me at home so i left.. haha kindda rude i saw my bus and ran off without saying bye.. on the bus daddykins was trying to be a good protective concern daddy asking me to msg him when i got home and shit... aiyo! yes joel im hot but not every guy is going to rape me so no need to be all nice guy with me. i can take care of myself. but it does feel nice to know that someone cares
~killer miller~

THE KILLER ALWAYS RULES!

2005-11-29T07:49:00.000-08:00

it is i killer miller! i am back with my "fuck to the owrld attitude".. my nose is running and i cant fine tissue so i say let it drip!!! let it drip far down till i can lick it up with my tongue.. i dont see whats wrong with doing that dogs do it all the time!!garys going away again! joy..... 3 days aint that bad. then IM going away for 4 days or something.. oh wells this just means bugging joel which im pretty sure he doesnt mind.. well at least i hope he doesnt. aint that right daddykins! THE KILLER IS IN THE HOUSE! im not in my happy happy mood. im dead tired. from doing physical activites... "if you know what i mean" speaking about that phrase i love it!

IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN!

wow i like bananas if you know what i mean
nah that doesnt look good on you if you know what i mean
oranges are my fav fruit if you know what i mean

speaking of naughty words christmas songs arent all that innocent! trust me people its full of sex talk. BUT i'll save that for another time near to christmas
*HINT* listen closely to the words of winter wonderland

~killer out~

ten ten ten!!!!!!!!

2005-11-27T08:36:00.000-08:00

so im painting my room! i love my oranges yes i do!!! FUCK MOTHER CHILD HAVE MERCY!!! i just heard a lizard.. i hate lizards evil little bums i swear they are planning to take over the god dam world people! watch out! if you jump i jump jack! what a whole load of crap.. eh eh eh wait wrong ah... its jack saying to rose right.. if you jump i jump rose... still a whole load of crap. which stupid boy would jump of a boat for a girl he just met??? but after all he is a boy and we all know boys are stupid... but sweet.. they are sweet stupid creatures which god put on earth to entertain us.ive said this before.. many of you think boys are here for us to reproduce. but hey girls are way smart! give us a few years we'd reproduce with ourselves... ok now that sick... boys are just made to keep us amused...really .. thats why we have shows like jackass and CKY you dont see girls doing stupid shit like that... now why am i always dissing boys when i spend most of my time around boys?? well ladys and gentalmen.. IM NOT THAT SMART!!! i cant hang around girls cause they're all sbove me boys are below be therefore making me smarter than them.. muahahahahaha!!! ok thats a lie i love all the boys theyre fun to make fun of...TMAI muahahahahahha isnt that like the cutest thing ever!!! yo know what it means!!! it means Tell
Me
About
It
bet you didnt know that now did you!!!!! see jillys smart!!!! hahaha coming from the girl who took like hours to figure out what OIC stood for....andrea told me the tmai thingy cool ah goodnight people! i shall awake to a pink room
~killer miller~

WRAP IT UP!

2005-11-22T19:58:00.001-08:00

my friends are the best people in the world! thanks rachel for listening to me last night. see its always good to have friends! i cant wait to go back to school (yes i know slap me!) but im so glad that people like rachel are still going to be in my class! makes school worth going for. but then again friends can get very confusing when the friend is of the opposite sex. but before i get into that have i told you that i love spelling the word "opposite" i have watching hi-5 and they had a song about it.. and it was so catchy and now whenever i spell that word i sing the song! hahaha.. ok this song is scaring me!!! cradle of filth.. well i think its them. angel of death. scary! i cant understand a word hes saying but hes got a freaky voice! ok change song!ah ya what was i saying.. ya the opposite sex friend thingy.. aiyo its like that movie. when harry meet sally.. one of them said something like. a woman and man cannot just be friends. which i agree with. i mean even bestfriends fall in love and shit.. and once they do it fucks things up and they never talk to each other again.. but enough with that... lets talk about sex! kiddies yall are too young to have sex!!! you know every min a person is infected with HIV! and every hour. hunderds of people die of AIDS! its a sary thing! and i was talking to joel and he was like at lest its not that bad in singapore. but truth is, it IS bad in singapore too! and its not the adults who are getting infected. its kids! my age kids! i think mtv is doing a killer job talking about sex. but we so totally should have it in school! like our sex education talks about how we SHOULDNT have sex! ya right! like kids are going to listen to that! we need facts and shit. we need big bright shiny billboards saying that

IT CAN AND WILL HAPPEN TO YOU, IF YOU KIDDIE STUPID FUCKS DONT USE A CONDOM!

and last time i checked its so uncool to be doing it.. like can you think for a second how gross it is your 15 and your having sex! what kind of sick child are you???
~killer miller~

p.s
i want comments about what you kiddies
think about having sex!

WRAP IT UP!

2005-11-22T19:58:00.000-08:00

DYING AGAIN

2005-11-20T20:37:00.000-08:00

i have never felt like such a waste of time before!! its almost 3 weeks into the holidays and what have i done???/ NOTHING!!! i havent been out!! i need to do something with my life.. how can i do that when most of my friends are working all night and sleeping all day!!!! thats not fair! im alone!! and im itchy!!!! i hate being itchy!! IM SICK OF WATCHING TV!! ok thats it starting from wednesday im going to be going out as much as i possibly can! and im gonig to cut my hair!! wish me luck! my hair never lokos nice! i cannot wait to be sec4 next year! i rule the school biatches!!! or at least thats the way i see it! see being in school means you have to leave your mark and so far with the juniors michelle and i have left our mark as the kids who spends most of our time out side the office. or in my case getting sent out of class.but all thats going to change next year. i hope. of but kiddies no worries there still will be dramam between teachers and i and alot of getting into trouble.just that i would have or should have done some growing up abit so main focus would be getting the grade! i know dont i sound like the biggest sell out! well im not! see i still will be hardcoring my way thorugh things and im not about to take shit from mr chan (not that i ever did) and ya there will be hell to pay if any of you suckers tell on me ever again! because new year means new teachers which means no protection and most importantly means i rule now! so all the teenage angst aside. whats the use of getting into trouble and being all that when you are failing! that i learnt this year! i mean being the kid who gets fuck alot from alot of people revenge is way sweeter when at the end of it all you end up getting PROMOTED while the people who have fucked on you the whole year ge ADVANCED!
head strong can take on anyone
~killer miller~

IM DYING!

2005-11-20T20:36:00.000-08:00

DAY1

2005-11-19T19:56:00.000-08:00

so yesterday was the gig at the youth park where 4th ave totally fucking rocked out! i swear they are so good. which is why its killing me to know that nigle is leaving the band. met hots and nicole then waited for princess joel who took well ok he didnt really make us wait that long so everything ok.. nicoles pretty nice lah.. i dont know why we dont like each other, i mean we have never actually done anything to each other but ok forget that. the 2 of us were standing in the middle of the stage right (bad move) didnt really notice lah like i mean you stand where your friends are.. so once 4th ave played the first sone *BANG* it was like bay beats all over again.. some fucker totally stabbed me in the side with his elbow. NOT FUN! pain! but ya then we moved aways and looked behind to check to see if there were any weird boys who might start another mosh pit. so after they played it got pretty boring cause the other bands werent all that wonderful.. hahah baist! so we sat around nicole and i finally got to pee in a nice clean toilet. then i got really bored so i stood on my chair i became a tree... staring down at everyone including kenneth who was like "fall fall fall" ya thanks i love you too. GOD i tell you it was so boring so FINALLY! joel hots nicole leslie sly and i decided to walk to PS to play pool. thing is we got there and they didnt have any tables so sly did some card tricks. thats kid is so good its unbelieveable.joel walked off with nicole to talk. she didnt seem too happy. so i played with leslie! all my scciors paper stone split games. so after beeting him oh so many times i moved on and played with hots i won him than joel came back!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA! so he was playing with me and was going a split when NICOLE KICKS HIM IN THE BALLS!!!! how fucking hilarious is that! but poor darling looked like he was really in pain.so i was BORED out of my mind and deicided to go home! we walked to the MRT and surprisingly joel walked me home. which is pretty shocking! and oh so very sweet of him.so i waited for the bus with him. and we had one of our serious talks. hes a really good friend he is very very good to talk too. he makes you feel bad and makes you cry. BUT thats alright so its his birthday today HAPPY BIRTHDAY WANKER!! ok done
~killer miller~

TRY ME!

2005-11-10T05:00:00.000-08:00

can someone tell me why im always getting into fights with people. like hi im a pretty likeable person..... i think... ah srew that. so had training and buggy wuggy was there being a first class bitch! she sucks! ok shes pretty strong fine but her attitude makes you want to shoot her in her face god! like all i aasked her to do was bend lower and push harder... hahahah hmmmmm anyone else having dirty thoughts??? and what did that thing say to me? "fuck off bitch" ...... what do i say to that....FUCK YOU LAH WHAT WANT TO KENA WHACK? CHEE BIE KANIENA COME AH LIE KIAM PAH! hahahahaha dont you love me???? hokkien is my bestfriend! like seriously lah dont even try talking to me like that. i would have got it on right there but no we have to control walk away from fights. although i'd really like to see if she'd really have to balls to go up agaisnt me.haha i talk like im big fuck ah... i want ah beng friends!!!! so fun
~killler miller~

MY FAMILY MY CULTURE!

2005-11-09T06:31:00.000-08:00

so i have decided to dismiss the oh so popular sugared pop culter of brittney ashlee and i-can-relate-to-teens-though-im-close-to-30 bands like simple plan and good charlotte (even though i still think billy is fine) as stupid little nothings. like i dont understand why parents would rather their childern listen to that kind of music which talks about the heart pain of going through break ups how to get a guy or how to get a girl like what is that teaching your child??? i mean bands like green day and manson and avenged sevenfold and those kind of bands they talk about real stuff that affect us the truth the whole fuck what the world thinks im happy with myself. im not talking about stupid little bands like erm.... ok cant think of them right now you know those metal bands that diss god for no reason like whats with that you know?? that just shows how lame they are they dont know how else to be cool so they jack off god. im not saying i like god but ya i suppose hes cool i mean he made the world and shit so like fine! i dont have a problem with god i have a problem with CHRISTIANS!! i cannot stand christians!!! THEY ARE A BUNCH OF FAKES!!! (well the ones i know) like really whats with the "oh i hate you your a bitch hey you wanna come to my church and learn about got?? you dont??? but why im trying to save you god dammit!!" like fuck bitch i aint not going to no freaking church and forcing me pressing on me makes me hate your kind more! so bugger off wanker not everyone wants to be saved! and dont judge people by what they wear. black is not a bad colour and having metal in your face doesnt make you a bad person either. come on kiddies look pass all that into the inside.. its like what god said right! he doesnt see what you are he sees who you are.. of some gay fuck like that... ha see it helps knowing understanding and respecting god and the religon before you diss it like an idiot which means you should learn understand and respect whatever it is that your against before you go all out bitch slapping it! aka think twice before calling people emo punk posers cause if that person knows more that you do your just going to end up lokoing stupid

p.s
i dont mean anything by the emo punk poser
just using it as an example. so marilyn if your
reading dont get pissed please
~killer miller~

PURE SCUM!!!

2005-11-07T06:04:00.000-08:00

oh my god!!! why are boys such assholes!!! it isnt all about the pretty girl (by the way she isnt even that pretty) dont they care about personality!!! like hi! wont you get bored of just looking at the bimbo and her boobs not that she even has that much!!! you'll have to talk some time right????? and what is with the using your friends or "friends" to get to this "girl-that-i-must-have-cause-shes-pretty!!!" like god dont they grow out of it!!!! get alife!!!! you piss the heck out of me and the worse part is i like you
~killer miller~

LOST

2005-11-03T07:29:00.000-08:00

ok other than that being a wick show. im so lost its crazy... i dont knw which group i belong too. i dont know if the friends that ive made are really going to be my friend or if its just like a holiday thing. and when the holidays are up the what? are they going to call and ask me out? so i shouldnt get too close should i... but how can to do that? how can you keep your distance from people who make you so happy to be around. do they really care? i mean i kindda seems that they are starting to care but is it real??or am i just making a big deal out of nothing?
~killer~

IN ALOT OF PAIN

2005-11-02T18:47:00.000-08:00

like OWWWW!!! the whole upper part of my body is hurt beyond hell.. im so stiff i should be dead. my sholders are killing me thanks to being the back spotter for the basket toss.. coach is crazy!!! he throw so high for what all??? madness. the impact of her landing on me is killer sia! aroms all hurting being a spotter sucks i wanna be a base now that im too heavy to be a flyer im 41kg!!!!!!! i put on 0.5 kg!!!!!!! yay!!!!!!! hahaha its good cause i put on the weight but you cant tell..gees i mean its only 0.5kg plus now that training stared again im going to lose more than i put on. so everythings good.. i eanted to go plays occer with fabian gary and christian last night but once again the parents got into a little bitch fit about how little girls shouldnt be going out at night with boys even if its just to play soccer downstairs.. DOWNSTAIRS being the key bloody word!!!besides look at the boys implaying with.. chrstian is welll.. never going to do anything to any girl and fabian is i dont know normal and gary ya well thats been done so chill out!!! i cant put on my bra!! which doesnt really bother me cause i dont have much to begin with so makes no difference to me. cant take off my shirt so pain. or maybe im just being a wuss about it.. nnah im telling you everything is killing me my neck and all EVERYTHING! oh but snickers made it alittle better..
~killerm miller~

happy halloween

2005-10-31T01:51:00.000-08:00

last night was fun as always how could i not have been fun with my friends.met gary and fabian on the bus. unlike shaunna they actually got on the right bus so the russian spys went to seragoon say leslie who scares me.. well not really. hes very abstract which is really cool. plus hes small i could put him in my pocket! ok no i couldnt if i were a giant i could.. what??? hot and christian came sat at the coffee shop and we were really late. was suppose to meet sarah at 5 but we were still eating. waiting for the princess joel. when he finally graced us with his presence we were wicked late. he was so grumpy like just woke up. haha what he wore also like he woke up in those and was too lazy to change.kampong sia!then final!! we went to meet sarah at PS. went to the toilet to change and do hair and make up. wah dam sick lah. so ugly! hahaha but thats alright it was halloween so can lah.walked around then decided to go to sarahs house for dinner.. haha 7 people came so like the poor girl had to go cook for us. i felt pretty special had someone cooking for me for a change. felt bad though the boys like so usless dam freeload lah. didn even ask to help. oh wells.. what to do? so ate nicely took many many pictures which are on friendster. funny lah the horsemen. went home after drama with the parents! i believe it or not got them to send me back home whoo hoo!!! i mean joel made noise but he gave in yay!i feel bad lah was in a crap mood than like being rude to joel but im sure he doesnt mind. hes a really good friend.. all of them are lah. gary walked me home and we played with the lifts.. not details.. hahah ok then
~killer miller~

LES PLAY A GAME

2005-10-28T23:28:00.000-07:00

WHO EVER CAN MAKE ME SMILE WINS $100 00 00000000 GOOD LUCK

ADVENTURE BOOK

2005-10-28T19:02:00.000-07:00

im telling you surpringly that is a very addictive song. claps for the cereal killers.so ive spent the better half of the morning spitting! phlem! yucky! like what is with this cough ive had it for 2 weeks!! madness. so got my results back. im cool with it. when my parents asked if i were happy with it i said yes. cause i am happy with it. it doesnt mean i love it cause i can do better. but im happy i got it cause i know i could have done a hell lot worse and i didnt! but once again we have the paretns. they were put on earth to kill all joy. and a talk with the mom in the car well it wasnt really a talk it was she talking and me lisening. she went on about how sec3 is not a big deal and she doesnt understand why im so happy i passed. it should have been easy and i shouldnt have had to worry so much. my sister never thought she'd fail my mom never thought she'd fail so why did i think i would fail? its easy what sec3! piss you! then she went on tlaking about how im lazy. now why am i the girl who worked wicked hard lazy? because at the age of 15 i dont know what i want to be when i grow up. thats why im lazy. go figure. a talk would not be completed without her telling me what a loser i am. so we spent some time listening to why im such a loser and how i'll never amount to anything.thanks momvery motivational. and i was hella sleepy so i decided to try and curl up in my seat to sleep but she took it as me being a loser. how she concluded that i dont know.so didnt talk during dinner. went home curled up in the car and went to sleep. i was half asleep. i heard my dad ask my mom in malay why i was in such a shit mood. and he was like why she did badly? and my mom said something about oh she improved since mid years. if she knows that why does she always give me so much shit
~killer miller~

HAPPY DAYS

2005-10-28T19:01:00.000-07:00

OK FINE!

2005-10-26T22:50:00.000-07:00

blah im 15 im going to be 16 in 2 months and a half months. i get the whole distraction thingy but then again its the holidays so i think its prety alright. and i know i am not one of those persons who can handle both. and yeah i will drift off so yes it is not a good idea. but i dont know.. we'll see what happenes when school starts. things will have to change but as for now. i shall enojoy it while it last. wow i just sneezed with water in my mouth.. hahahaha!!!! ok nvm that... getting my results tmr.. cant wait!! first time seeing so many passes.. my parents wont be happy but i dont care too much about that cause i know i rocked out!! like all my teachers were so sure id retain and they were all coming up to me kissing up telling me that they're so proud of me and that i made it to sec4 . hell even my grandmothe called to ask how i did.. first question. so how'd you do? second? cant move up to sec4.. like hell ya! was there ever a doubt?? hahahahaha. halloween! im going to be tinkle freaking bell i dont care!!!!!!!! im a wishful thinker.. ok enough funny song
~k.m~

GETS YOU NO WHERE

2005-10-26T04:15:00.000-07:00

ok ya to the angel who are you? like really. and ya if my parents do "stumble" onto my blog good for them! hell they will know exactly what i really think and feel about them. why do they not already know? because everytime they piss me off i NEVER talk back! yes thats right me the one who spits poision at teachers and anyone who dares scre with me due to my lack of respect of Authority cannot talk back to her parents! shocking huh. i dont do it because there is no point they never see it my way and have there own fixed opinion about how i do things and the way the think i see things.. wtf??? and im the one whos narrow minded. they think i wear black becasue i lack self confidence. they think i wear black to "fit in" they think i get into trouble to "prove myself" to people. now tell me people all my friends how really know me does that sound like me??? HELL NO!! i do what i want when i want and frankly i dont really care what my parents think of me cause ive already learnt how to deal with the fact that i will never be good enough for them. which ya hearing my mom go on about how my marks suck and its going to get me nowhere and my dad backing ehr up cause he just thinks im a slacker.. FYI a slacker who made the biggest improvment of her life and who did better than a whole load of people who are "smarter" than me. all my teachers are over the moon proud of me. while my parents think im still shit" so fuck that from the back and move on with life. my dad asked what i was planning to do during the holidays like get a job? how the hell can i do anything with my life when im not going to be allowed to go out.. like hmm lets see if i do go out at least once a week id be so thrilled a that. though id have to be home by 10 when everyone else is partying. so if they do stumble upon this it wouldnt make a difference cause nothings going to change. they dont know how good they have it. im a brilliatn daughter to have. they know and met all my friends i dont lie about where i am im always home on time i dont smoke i dont drink when they arent around they know that at parties theres beer and shit they know everything about me except about gary which my the way i am DYING to let them know so i dont have to hid anything
~killer miller~

RAHHHH!!

2005-10-25T06:00:00.000-07:00

ok so im pretty in fact i think i cant say im very happy? with my results so far.. other then social.. which fucked.. but ya like compared to my mid years i totally killed finals!!!ah i never thought it would come to this but im in love. its horrible i cant stand it! its the most annoying feeling in the world!! and everyone should fuck and die!!! i hate it!!! its like im talking to gary and its taking me forever to put the phone down you know why??/ cause i didnt want to put the phone down!! not like we were talking about something that was way interesting it was just that i wanted to talk to him.. ahhh. like how weak is that!! and what is with the thinking.. you cant stop thinking about that person.. hi! i dont think!! i never think and now im thinking more than ever!!! its crazy.. and you feel all weird and sick and yucky cause you miss the person.. why the hell do i miss him?? like hi i spent the whole day with him on saturday till sunday so that normally would be an over doze of a person but no its not enough.. and you trust that person so much and thats not a good thing.. cause if he does something anything mean to me i know that i will crumble and die! yes so much for hardcore! its not something i can help its just like that. hes got me all high and in the sky with my friend lucy and its like anything he says goes and if it stops i'll just die! what am i going to do??? ahhh hes online!!! yay!!! why am i so happy? stop god no its like nooooo.. fireworsk when i see him online its crazy i sound so fag!! ahh you know ive like stopped listening to my noisy moisy music. and ive been listening to nice slow lovey songs CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT??? its crazy and the worse part is that i totally love it
~killer miller~

LAST NIGHT SHE SAID

2005-10-23T05:30:00.000-07:00

the strokes!!! ok nvm it was wonderful last night.

THE WORLDS A BETTER PLACE

2005-10-20T23:44:00.000-07:00

so ok chill out about my name and about the "threat" all is good and well in my world. when your angry you say things you dont mean but then your forgiven. not going to close it down cause its a waste of time. not that it takes that long to get a new blog.i passed MATH!! can you believe that!!!!! i cant!!!1 how the heck did i pass math???? not that im complaining.. passed history too so humans english and math are down im SEC4!!!! YAY!!!! no retaining

KILL THE MOTHERFUCKER EVERYBODY HAS TO DIE

2005-10-20T01:55:00.000-07:00

i cannot believe i failed my SS!!!! it is not humanly possible that I jillian kimberly lim FAILED SOCIAL!!!! how the hell did this happen? i know HIM! hes evil and never i said NEVER liked me!! still having his revenge at my expense licks balls. i studied my ass off for that exams.. i knew EVERYTHING!!! there was to know about merger and seperation and to give me a 9!!!!!!!! your joking!i DONT! deserve a 9 and you know it!!!!!!!!!! people who didnt even study got higher how is that right??? its not fair! hell suspending me from class and all!!words cannot express the anger and rage i have in me to that THING!!! no heart!! no heart!!!! hi if you dont like the student fine be a MAN and mark FAIRLY!! god its WRONG!!!!i'll get all the other teachers to re-mark it and i tell you for a FACT they will NOT ever! give me 9!!!!
~killer miller~
P.S
trust me dude you will pay
i get out of school in 2 years
loans of time to plan
run bitch run!!!

I'D DRINK PISS FOR YOU

2005-10-16T05:36:00.000-07:00

awww isnt that the sweetest most romantic thing youve heard? hahah what happened to i'd die for you i'd stop the world from spinning for you. i'd go up to heaven and get stars for you.. but no no thats all right i'll drink piss for you is just as good ah..besides knowing my group of friends that is alot more realistic then stupid stars.although stars are really pretty...i miss michelle and people going to ask her to come over tmr and do some bonding.. like i'll cook for her.. ah there! why not i'd cook for you.. i'd drink piss for you.. hahaha oh my darling slacker is so cute ah.going out for prata with gary tmr. PRATA! oh how i love my prata.. it is possible that at this moment in time i love prata more then anything... oh shaunna i miss shaunna mus go out with her for prata again.haha russian spy.YOU DIDNT GET ON THE BUS!!! hahahahahahaha fail lah.god the things i say to that boy. one would think i really like him... hmmmmmmmmmmmm makes you think huh.can jill really be in love? is that even possible? but its jill the one person who bitches like crazy about being in love and disses it every week or so. can this be? whats the world coming too? worse! what happenes if i break up. oh wow the impact of bitching ranting and raving about that would be huge
~k.m~

MISSION FAILED!

2005-10-15T08:28:00.000-07:00

mission failed but at least i know hat gary loves me! ya ya i know.. but he does hi he followed me all the way back home from MS thats like far ok! so thank you babe!the party like licked balls lah please! ok wasnt that bad... well it sucked but i still had fun. so the fear of scott is gone gone gone! hey wanna see a mosh pit start? i tell you skinheads arent all that hardcore.. they mosh like scared to push each other. but they are very nice people. st gabs on the other hand VIOLENT! scary sia... and yes once again thanks to joel the "protecter" acting all macho sheilding nadia and i from the crazy people. had lost of fun. wore sarahs heels for a while. woah dam high ah! ok what is with all this sia sial and ah!! aiyo speak nice nice jill! ok so ya i think i looked prety alright last night. cleaned up good. kindda good. joel and i were twins! haha oh oh oh!!! the girls moshing! that was the highlight of the night, ok no it wasnt. but it was classic watching 5 little girls try their best to push each other around. oh entertainment babes! thats bout it yo!
p.s
thanks to everyone who noticed i was gone
to shaunna for being such a doll
gary for just being gary (yes we are together so STOP ASKING!)
~killer miller~

HELL HAVE MERCY!

2005-10-13T07:26:00.000-07:00

god ok if i were planning on doing anything why the hell would i tell you? yes there will be boys there whats the big deal??? like hi im so as hell not going to be doing anything with anyone so chill the hell out people! oh the girl who smokes!! god she doesnt smoke.. ok she does lah but so what all of them smoke I DONT! is that whats suppose to count that fact that i DO NOT smoke!!! yall just think i do. why you think i smoke i have no freaking clue! god people im not you! you'll let me stay late but i'll have to come home?how late can i possibly stay?? no transport unless i take a cab which i can but why do that?? and like blah you'll pick me up??? why the heck wuold i want my daddy come pick me up??? so much for rockstaring my way out of it.. god boy! thats the issue? dod you really want to fight over something thats really nothing? ok i still love that line form that song from that aussie band.. good stuff.. do you really want to cry over issues wet tissues stick to my shoes.. haha good stuff. ok you know what lets just look on the brighter side of things.. whih would be that im actually allowed to go. thats good. being allowed to go is always a good thing but hell what time do i have to be back.. if im back by 3 i'll be wicked happy.. well really what my dad said was that im allowed to stay late just that i have to come home.. and 3am is late and i will be home.. so im not breaking any rules.. i can take a cab cabs are good you know.. i'll leave at 2 am walk to town for an hour hopefully that would make the trip cheaper.. ahh do they have night riders at 3??? if they do that would totally kill now wouldnt it.. ah i'll think of something
~K.M~

A KISS TO BUILD A DREAM ON

2005-10-13T05:08:00.000-07:00

ok for those who already know, no i am not becoming soft and mushy and love sick. a kiss to build a drem on is just a really good song.. very nice.. so yes its been a while since i blogged but then again who reads this shit.. if you do, people get a life! yes the exams are finally over thank the god lord kurt! ok yeah so not going to do too well. but im pretty sure i'll be doing better hten mid years.. shit the partys tmr and i have like this HUGE scab on my face.. chin... ya ok so story is i saw something there and decided to pick at i then it blead then i carried on became red so i was like ok lets stop. this morning i wake up with this hugeass scab on my chin which is not going away anything soon! hell kill me.. so MISSION: AFTER SCHOOL ROCKS! is pretty full proff.. thanks to shaunna.. oh ya i went out with her today after school to go eat prata.. ya i know.. she thinks prata is gay.. PRATA IS NOT GAY SHAUNNA! its good shit.. so yes we are doing a robin.. those whom dont know what that is.. its when i say im staying at her house and shes staying at mine when in fact we are out getting into mindless drunken trouble... or at least i think its called a robin.. it its not than that will be a HUGE jag to me... ok HUGE seems to be coming up alot in this post.. oh wells my exams are over im allowed to get into trouble! baby im a rockstar and i'll NEVER get caught! EAT ME LOSERS! peace out homeys
~killer miller~

EXAMS

2005-10-04T04:54:00.000-07:00

had social today was shit like shit very shit it was so shit i cannot begin to tell you how shit it was

chances are

2005-10-01T03:19:00.000-07:00

ok so between a nice inoccent little girl whos never been kissed (that was a funny movie) and a girls whos done it all (well most of it) chances are the boy is going to go for the.. how should i say this.. "more educated" girl?? ya so someone told me that if the guy does do that all he wanted was to get some. and wasnt in it was a real relationship. but then i ask you this. your 15 16 right.. between having a real relationship and going physical. chances are your not in it for a pure relationship. face it man your a teen and youve got hormons nothing can stop that. which brings me to my next point. if theres a boy and you think that boys cute chances are he is cute (unless youve got really messed up taste) and if the boys cute chances are other girls think hes cute. and chances are the boy knows hes good looking,. and being friends with the good looking boy which other pretty girls also find good looking. chances are hes going to be getting with one of the more willing/ pretty girls.. which means im going to die alone with 27 freaking cats!!! what ever happened to good old morals.. like does every girl have to making out and do stuff to get the guy? like gees boys are horny asses huh... and what is this deal abotu having sex? i dont care if your using a condom or not having sex when your 15-16 is beyond gross. like god people wank for a reason right? hahahaha ok besides the point... all this stupid teen pressure that kiddies are giving up too. use your head not your... well.. ya j\use your head
~killer miller~

RONIN!

2005-09-28T01:12:00.000-07:00

ok so ronin so toally killed! they rocked way hard! they were good. i mean good as in they give hope to local bands. im telling you. singapore has some really good bands just give local bands a try. and fuck your snobby USA attitude! blah it made me wanna puke when i saw some of the most teenie boppers jumping along to ronin. like god back off.. such a snob i am.. just that only a few who truely appreciate music and i mean real music should be allowed into our culture... if we let every avril loving kid in the culture would be massively polluted. ok enough of that.. wicked cool i was right infront with sarah and michelle.. stupid camera kept cocking up. took so really hot shots of levan (singer) ha thought it was really cool that he'd actually stop infront of the camera for a good picture. then there was sean(guitarist) who i think is so cute and hes sick on the guitar too!! so funny when he walked over to our side of the stage and all the girls screamed and he was so pleased with himself. oh darren (bassist) everyones favourite! I LOVE THE BASSIST! haha how groupie can we get... but no he was cute..dam style lah his voice low as hell freaking stonner but very amusing.. i wanna bang, BANG(drummer)! ok no i dont. but he was so shy? i dunno confused me.. i felt bad i was like your suppose to say welcome not thank you.. like jill shut up!! who the hell are you to tell him that!!! oh wells.. simon(other guitar) didnt really mingle with the girlys that were flocking around him... they signed my belt... everything is a blur to me.. took pictures with them... very sweet down to earth guys who are oh so very friendly! sucks that they are so much older then us huh... i know who levan has a crush on.. haha so until the next ronin gig... piss off!
~killer miller~

GIVE UGLY PEOPLE A CHANCE!

2005-09-26T23:48:00.000-07:00

ok so if all the pretty people in the world are friends and all the ugly people in the world are friends.. thats not a good thing now is it.. i say its just as bas as being racist.. like everyone as their little idea that pretty people are bitches and bimbos and pretty people think ugly people are weull ugly and boring.. not true some are really nice... and some pretty people are really smart and nice.. thos are the kind you have to look out for the all rounderes... ok dont know why im talkijng about that,,,ENGLISH! is finally over thank the good lord... it was ok... might be able t pass.. but now that thats dead... on to more importnant things.. everyone must star preparing for RONIN! yes RONIN is FINALLY! coming TOMORROW!!! so for home work i want everyone to go home put on good old school rock music and head bang silly!!! dont scream save that for tmr
~killer miller~

BREAKING POINT!

2005-09-23T21:32:00.000-07:00

god ok not working i cannot do it anymore. i cant ok fuck it, giving up ok trust me anyone who actually thought that i as going to be able to do it is a fucking idiot i cant!! fucking loser ok i am fine i dont care anymore. my sister is fucking killing me!! im trying to listen to music to de-stress and she keeps making the fucking tv louer over the music fuck lah just die! cannot take it anymore! fuck fail lah! ok sorry for the lack of vocab but really its killing me! 19 days not enough time screw it
killer miller
p.s thanks to everyone who tried to help sorry for wasting your time

NEVER ENDING!

2005-09-23T21:09:00.000-07:00

ya so dont you just love how metallica songs just change into a whole different sound half way through the song. its brilliant. ok so its like 19 days till the end of the exams sounds good right? but no! i havent finished studying for anything yet! and im telling you i cannot screw this one up . the paretns will be all over me. the peridos isnt helping. im telling you boys have it so good. every friday night they get to go out and stay out late. one would think they dont got no houses. and what am i doing friday nights? nothing!! ah at least im going to be watching LORD OF DOGTOWN! on tuesday. thats one of the 2 things im looking forward to next week. the other thing of cause is RONIN! ah cannot wait! but yeah so what is this pressusre to kiss someone. ha! i know like where the hell did that come from. but no really. some people which may or may not inculde myself who have friends and go out with them alone dont you feel pressured to do something. ha dont you just love it when jill speaks like that.. i dont know shy shy lah telling the world my little baby inoccent first love problems. ah ok im actually blushing. ok stop. BOYS SHOULD DIE! even thoes whom i might like. confusion.. i better be going. my moms walking around and eveytime she walks past me she like stares into the computer. hoping to get a look at what im writting
the killer miller

EASY PEASY

2005-09-21T06:21:00.000-07:00

well not so easy peasy but i think im getting it.. so physics isnt that much of a bitch.. haha ya getting it.studied with sarah and gary today. yes we actually did study.. or at least i did. so yeah came home read stuff did notes covered 2 chapters! im going slowly. no time man! blah like exams in 3 weeks till need to do bio and history! ah screw this i swear
angel
ya the colours thing might take tim.. blacks good to wear. dont need to match it with anything.how are you parents? mine are PAINS!!! arent they all.. but i swear its like they are forever getting up on how i dont study and even now when i am.. that studying now isnt going to help

~killer miller~

PAY IT FORWARD

2005-09-19T06:21:00.000-07:00

so tonight i shall be talking about "paying it forward" im telling you its an awsome thing. like in the world we live in now nothing is free. even if you do something for someone out of your own free will you'll not knowingly expect something in return. even if someone does something for you our of their own will, im pretty sure you'll end up saying something like " ya i'll buy you lunch or a drink or something to pay the person back" i dunno to me paying it forward is like motivation. well at least the one that i've been getting. ok maybe i wont call it so much as paying it forward but like. take angel right. out of no where she comes and starts saying really killer stuff about me which is adding fuel to my wanting to do better. and when she did that she couldnt possibly want anything from me in return. and thats brilliant. and like for some reason, im helping my friend whos like a total gone case. well thats what people tell me.. like why waste my time with him. thing is i know he can do it! i dont think he knows he can but i know he can. so we were on the phone talking and reading about history and SS right, and he actually could remember stuff. hopefully he acutally remembers it. nah i know he well hes smart. and by helping him its helping me cause im like "re-freshing" my own memory. so its a win win situation! plus makes me feel good about myself.. haha. ya ok so angel dud if you cant leave comment here then what? and whats the talk about learning to like brighter colours. my mom says the same thing
killermiller

IS THIS THING WORKING?

2005-09-17T21:55:00.000-07:00

Boo?

IT HAS BEGUN

2005-09-16T19:59:00.000-07:00

im telling you this stupid chapter on the merger is never ending. been studying it for a week and i still have like loads more pages to get through. sall good shall be done by today. now how maluing is this. my mom was walking past the computer and happened to read the first line of my post which was something like. "falling in love sucks" like blah! the rest of the day revolved around how im too young to be "falling in love" something which trust me mom im well awear of. im your freaking poster girl for ANTI-RELATIONSHIPS. so my musics getting boring. oh but on the up side i finally found my nirvana cds!!! and get this my sister has a band! now in which world is that normal?? i swear she has to out do me in everything. like my whole guitar rockstar secret life. shes got to get in on that. i started going to gigs way before you even know singapore had a music secene. and suddenly you connections who can get me in for fre at substaion?? as if! doesnt really bother me that much. 26 days till im un-grounded. 12 days till RONIN comes! 4 months till im 16! i tell you everytime i listen to stairway to heaven i feel like im in the 70s in a dark room sitting in a circle smoking weed.. its so calming it rocks me! its brilliant!

ANGEL
ya my moms always asking me what im going to do with my life. become a VJ or DJ or something to do with entertainment. ya i know easier said then done. or heck i'll become a teacher. IRONY! i swear if i get a student like myslef i'd kill her! god i actually have a goal. needa get my humans science and english. ya doesnt seem like much but trust me. for me its huge

~killermiller~